I had a brief encounter recently where someone shared how deep their hurt is and that no one else has had such a painful existence as they. I took the opportunity to express that we all go through hard times. Life has its ups and downs and no one is exempt. Some of the painful times are harder than others but learning how to handle it and how to rise above it is what sets some people apart. Those who look like they have it all together have only learned how to get up and get going, moving past the circumstance, and do what needs done.
Sometimes pain can envelop your mind and you can't see past the storm, but you are not alone. The Bible is full of people who experienced pain like yours and worse.
That is one reason we have the Bible. So we can read it and learn from it.
The painful times, the trials, the rejection, the rumors, the hard times of life...God uses these times to make us stronger if we will let Him. Sometimes the biggest lessons come from the most painful times.
There were times in my own life when I felt the world was against me. We ministered in several difficult churches and there were days I wanted to walk away from ministry and have nothing to do with church people or the church. I've even expressed to my husband that when he retires I don't think I want to go to church anymore. Because people are cruel.
However, if I had not gone through those times I wouldn't have the insight I now own. I wouldn't have the backbone to say what needs to be said. I wouldn't have the wisdom that reminds me to not say some things. I wouldn't have the freedom to be myself because I would still be caught up in trying to please everyone.
You are not alone. We have all been there. You will get through this.
Get out your Bible and start reading.
Read about Job. If anyone had reason to be in misery he did, but he never lost faith in God.
Read the Psalms, they are eye opening.
Every hero of the Bible went through difficult times.
And you will too.
It's part of life but you will make it through if you learn to trust in the Lord in every area of your life.
Pray for wisdom. Pray for peace in your thoughts. Pray for guidance.
Pray for discernment. Pray for joy.
He will provide it all. Maybe not today, but be patient in the trial.